I was recently in a season of letting go of striving, and during this time, all I wanted to do was pray and love God. Any time I tried to minister to someone, I wouldn't feel grace-- it felt like striving. It was crazy because every time I was in a public place I would feel burning in all these random parts of my body, and I knew they were probably words of knowledge, but I didn't know how to respond to the lord--it was like I had the gift/tool, but needed the Holy Spirit to show me how to use it. So... I told the Holy Spirit- I need you to initiate this (ministry to others), and I'll know it is time to respond. On July 10th, I was about to go camping, and I was emailing la friend. As I was typing I felt tingling in my wrist. So I typed something like -- "This is weird, but do you have pain in your wrist? If so, be healed in Jesus' name. All pain go." that morning I read my email—my friend responded saying, "My wrist has been bothering me for weeks! I have had really annoying pain, and I woke up today and pushed around on it, and it didn't hurt anymore. I was screaming when I found out!” In another instance I was at Subway in some random place in Oklahoma, and I was in the ladies room-- this lady walked in and I felt fire on my right ankle. I was super freaked out and didn't want to say anything, but then reality hit me, "I have nothing to lose here. If God did this with my friend, he can do it again. And I'll probably never see this lady again." So I made conversation with her as we washed our hands and found out she was on her way to California with her boyfriend who is a truck driver. I said as we were leaving the bathroom, “This might sound weird, but by chance does your right ankle hurt?" She said, "No, why do you ask?" and then I told her about how God speaks to me through sensations on my body, and she responded-- "Wow! That's an awesome gift-I would love to have that gift." I told her about how my friend was healed, and she said, "Actually, my ankle does hurt." I was so excited! I found out it hurts when she sits for a long time. So I prayed and asked if she felt anything. She said, "It feels tingly," and I said, "That's good, God is touching your body. He loves you." Then I asked her if she felt pain, and she said "NO." I asked, "did it hurt before I prayed?" and she said, "Yeah." "God just healed you! He loves you!!" she was super grateful, and a little baffled. She introduced me to her boyfriend--it was super sweet. One thing I loved about this was it just took probably 5 minutes-- in my mind before, every ministry opportunity took hours and hours and couldn't be apart of my normal day, because I didn't have all those extra hours! It was a great learning experience.
That following Sunday I was at celebration, full of faith because of all that God did, and I was feeling burning on my right knee and right shin-- all of celebration-- I talked to our pastor about it, and he had it announced, and two people came up with pain in those places!!! I was jumping up and down ecstatic! I prayed for a girl, and she was able to bend her knees without them crunching, and ran a couple days later without shin splints! so amazing!!!!!
I'm still learning how to partner with the Holy Spirit in words of knowledge, and they've been right about half the time, and when it’s not, it's humbling :) and I have to keep trusting that the person of the Holy Spirit is leading me and guiding me, and its not about results, but responding to Him, loving Him, and loving others.