One of the requirements to be a student in the school of music and be on scholarship is to be in the appropriate ensemble, ie: orchestra for violinists. I knew there was an audition coming up, but in the past there have been a couple days into the first week of school before starting auditions. I found out four hours before that I had to audition that day. I panicked.  I hadn't practiced classical violin in over a year, and had barely played the thing at all.  I thought to myself, here's my weak flesh for all to see, and then promptly told everyone I could think of to pray that worship, favor, and confidence would arise despite the glaringly obvious weakness in my preparation.  It was all on papa, and all I needed was to get in.  I went home, practiced on and off for three hours, and worshipped during my breaks.  My heart was still in a way that I have only experienced maybe three times in the entirety of my performing career.  I went in saying "Whatever you want, I want," and auditioned playing my solo repertoire nearly as well as I did that year and a half ago. That alone was absolutely miraculous. What's even more awesome is this: I am seated higher than I have ever auditioned for in my collegiate career. talk about loving kindness.